Tell me I didn't think of a curse phrase and one will come to mind.
I always kept my venting enough to myself. Why would I get punished if someone hurt me and everyone didn't care about what they did? I just get upset and defensive, protective of myself and things good to be protective of, but not too vicious to other people. I have not started any problems, overall. No one's perfect. No one else lives these silly experiment things that I know of that are so bad. We could wonder why I would end up like this. People vent upset. I think they made a rule that I lose relationships if I ever do, tho, even to myself and not so much at others.
Also, the people watching me are creepy now. They're trying to get me on their bad list, probably can't stand the apprehension and won't stop following a good person that I am. Well, their oddities don't aid. My life has turned into a game to see if I get mad, and that could spark little bits of anger, itself.
So, I dealt with my problem by asking my mom why she was making noises that bothered me so much and in the end told her that it might make me considerably more upset. I feel like her slave for life cuz I gave away her age and photo online cuz I was confused moving here and she made it hard to think and sounded like she was joking. I need to put this up with my other problems on my website.
I need to go to bed soon, so tired from the walk. Prayers for my mom to feel better. She's fine in her way, but I felt affected or tested in a weird way.
I dunno, I should have just come to post on my blog. There was no convincing her otherwise, but I'm not supposed to need to do this.
Also, if anyone is jealous get your own blog and start trying to network.
Sorry if I scared anyone by feeling odd. It was dumb of me. I should have known to post this here. I guess I need to consider my problems or ask for help. I can't seem to get good help on these things people get upset at me for. Better safe than sorry. I should fix myself if I find it is possible. Can't function otherwise. People who want to do what I do should. They probably are more collected. I don't know how to get me better, tho. Maybe, I have to accept the consequences in relationships and that I won't be forgiven or let back in as the same. Hey, these ear plugs are nice. The experiment noises don't have to happen or something. Feels extra quiet.
Gotta sleep. Really.
Prayers for those affected, like my mom not liking me asking that weird stuff.
Again, sorry to you and about abusing my life. I need a good ice breaker.
Maybe, I can work this out when I wake up again. I'll post my post and see if help finds its way to me.
Thanks! and sorry to others and myself! tho I don't think it was my fault or it was kinda a tough situation.
I keep on and on in this, huh, weird.