Problem

Simply, all my dad had to do was "emit" an idea and Central Florida followed, that this the next day would be about Bella and not someone else I like.  Supposedly, that person gave the command, which is disturbing.  It was like it was "belched" out to the world and, like, with "little substance," "no intent nor purpose" described, just to p*** me off, tho it does not actually bother me in and of itself.  If there is a reason, it's that people think I should be in trouble now and they became freely racist.

*Apology

Problem

Why is everyone so freely calling me not white all of a sudden?

Problem

Why is Ellen DeGeneres always getting at me for the past and things that had legitimate reasons from my part yet not the other?  Why is anyone else, too?

Problem

They are acting like I'm nothing to someone but Ellen DeGeneres is because she's older.

Problem

They are suggesting that what I post online doesn't matter to anyone I like cuz I took a survey online and admitted something I had said as a yes.  Just saying.  They pretty much have everyone locked up with the experimenting/spying on me.  It just seems ridiculous to have my blog ignored but me be in contact via whatever they say about me in private.  I feel like they're just putting on a show for each other for little things that happen that I don't know about at the time to do or not.  I know Ellen DeGeneres used to pay attention online but stopped after she did something and I posted about it and used an inappropriate "adult" word.  I think they are having everyone ignore me cuza her.

Problems

My grandma and oldest aunt have been creeping around me so I can't think of happy thoughts by interrupting me.

Worried

Whenever I'm almost home, I get some negative message from cars.

I was so tired, and someone just clucked up that something was made for someone, I was so tired, and the cars roared past and made me or helped me think negatively when I couldn't think at 1st.  I realized it at 1st.  I tried to think thru to the point myself for some reason and tried to round it off positively.

Devastated

I was in bed and almost asleep or sorta asleep.  They said when I think of something from someone that I think of someone else, or when I "do 'the real thing.''  It is prominent in my life, and it kept coming to mind.  I was devastated and couldn't get myself to feel better, maybe in bed over an hour, f***ed.  It hasn't exactly gone away, but I've recently avoiding thinking of it.

Strange, Suspicious Deaths

Natalie Cole just died.  I found out checking Twitter.  So, we remember her death on the New Year?  That's going to be tragic.

Sometimes, I wonder if Ellen DeGeneres is having people die and get killed because of things I've done, but I hope nothing like that is happening.  You know, I am being experimented or spied on.  They never were mean like this before, roughhousing me.

I think I'm pretty good.  When I am upset in some way there is a legitimate reason.  I am proper as I can around who I am around.

Ellen DeGeneres seems to be doing this because I cursed about the hurtful, illegal noises she put in my room.

The people experimenting on me are acting weird, too.

I feel I'm being pursued, hunted down.  Ellen DeGeneres seems to be behind it, for some reason.  She seemed to act like she was, and my oldest aunt thought it was overly obvious and without a question.

They are being mean to me now whereas before they drew me in to their experimentation or spying with positive messages, and I said they didn't have to do it.  They think my flunking and getting mad punching holes in my wall is the reason.

It seems that when someone gets told off, it happens once.  With me, they aren't stopping.

You know, it seems like her death was planned for the New Year, my favorite holiday and when I hoped then if I have kids to have one of them then..  It sounds like they were picking at me telling me to live with Chinese-Indonesians and forget my life.  I told my mom what I was thinking.  I wasn't being bad.  She was.  She kept making me feel bad.

So, supposedly, Ellen DeGeneres or the experimenters know I like the New Year and to have a child around then maybe and everyone involved in my life is just okay with this, all these deaths made to stimulate me at certain times and tell me I'm bad when I'm not and they are.

Before people complimented me for who I was kinda a lot.  Now, they are saying I've done bad things no one knew and are being mean and getting mad at me when they're mean and I defend myself.  I was just having a conversation.  I wasn't yelling really.  They keep picking at me like I'm bad and doing these things like they don't matter.

They just said someone I liked did it!  Why do they keep shocking me?  For some reason, it reminds me of Ellen DeGeneres.  They keep acting like I was bad.

I don't mean for you to think I'm being mean to Ellen DeGeneres, as I'm not.  She acts like she is doing this and my oldest aunt is, too.  Why is everyone acting like I'mo bad!?  They are hurting people who care about me.  They keep spying on me picking at every little thing I think in a way or often.  What was done to me was wrong, and I was trying to see if I could fix the problem.  People can't ruin my life.  They want me to examine myself.  I know my intentions, and they are not bad.  I don't listen to wrong things.

It's about what everyone knows is right, not other opinions.  If I have a hard time, you shouldn't set me up for this trouble.

Why does Ellen DeGeneres see me as a bad person?  Why does she injure me emotionally, etc., if she finds something she disagrees with?  Everyone is important, not just her wrath at everything.

Who's causing problems, anyway, people who don't believe in fighting them?

I'm sorry, with what I've adjusted if any of this sounds annoying or something.  Sorry about mentioning Ellen DeGeneres so much, but why does she act like she did it sometimes?  Ugh!  Not sure how else to go on and make of it and be done explaining this.  I need to nap soon.  Not sure what to say now.  I was just out walking.

Problems

My dad kept acting suggestive like I wasn't white and I was bad.  He drove in a suggestive way, like that's what he had to do or something, jerking around trying to arouse me.  I pressed my foot on something and he woke up.  I accidentally opened the faucet too much when I was mad.

He sent me the secret message that someone I like is "stupid" in a stimulating way that won't go away.