Well..

..Better be off to bed, didn't accomplish much here.  Yea, sorry, but I was just speaking plainly, not with the sarcastic at every meaning thing.  Maybe, it was unnecessary.

I am upset that people are poking at me and bringing up the past again all of a sudden.

Problem

They are getting meaner.

Problem

This is all your "punishments."  You're just upset I hadn't called my grandma.  I had a good day until this.

Problem

They are acting like they are going thru the motions, but I sense "punishment."

Problem

I shouldn't lose anything.

Problem

They keep bothering me.

Problem

They keep acting like someone I like is being mean to me.  They are relaying messages.

Problem

I said someone else resembled someone and thinks she's so sacred I have to suffer something because they think they know what I mean.  Supposedly, someone I like did it.

Problem

They are talking about if someone looks at my face and making my face work like theirs and I don't want it.

Issue

They think that they will come up with bad things by accident, but I have also seen myself punished for no reason, nonetheless.

Problem

I don't know why they have these issues with my life.  It seems selfish and not worth it.

Problem

They acted like me feeling for my face all of a sudden was another person.

Issue

They left messages for me all over the IMDb Soapbox, manipulating or something.

They are putting a memory there for possible future kids I have.

Problem

They're acting all close like they're punishing me.

Problems

My parents are acting like it's some big project following me around supposedly trying to arouse me behind it all.

They can't act like that, having a grudge for no reason.

Problem

They keep taking something from me.  What?  Why are we all hyperactive?

Also..

..I was upset coming home at the onslaught.  I know they just care in a way.

I hope my dad is okay.

Gotta Go

Wrote my grandma a note and gonna call maybe on a walk..

What should I do about..

..what I wrote?  Change any of it?  I said sorry.  I didn't mean anything bad.

So..

Why do people act like I need to be pretended I'm bad so I can feel hurt and disciplined all the time?

You know, this stress could hurt someone.

Whatever Happens Happens

Things like this are bad news to me.  I like a clean record, but I don't have one with my dad.  If something bad happens, I don't want it to be my fault nor my doing in.

How to Fix It and Make Things Better

I dunno, no matter what I did he still did it.  All of a sudden, my grandma came up.  I was limping home holding my shoes almost had a heart attack from all the coffee I tried.

Something I Noticed

My dad thinks it's funny like I'm punished.

More Problems

My eyes don't feel as well right now.

What should I have done?  Left my dad?  He was just sitting there acting like, you know, nonchalant and making weird noises.  It wasn't just me putting up with it.  It bothered me.  Things like this happened after I was told to leave colleges.  Sometimes, I thought the music had made me more sensitive.  I can't just leave the room and post here all the time.  This is gonna do me in.

Apology

Sorry if I seemed upset that bothered anyone.

Problems

I was out walking for 6 1/2 hours after the psychiatrist and eating out with my mom and had a great time.

I came home, and everyone beat at me for not calling my grandma.  My dad acted like he wasn't.

They are pretending it's okay someone I like went all out and goofed and is acting like a perv.  My dad put on someone playing guitar without being able to see, like some joke.  On the way home, I heard I would lose my eyesight.  It's a funkitated joke.

It is bothering me how they keep jumping at me in the experiment so I get startled like I'm bad.  They wait for a certain time apparently.  They need to stop whatever they did that was bad.

I was sitting with my dad.  He was talking.  I was trying to have a good time, but he kept being insulting and keeps thinking of me as being not white like he always has when he hasn't.  It's in an inappropriate way.  I just wanted him to stop being so annoying.  I told him he was bothering me and asked if anything was wrong.  He just keeps on like it's okay to drop the other shoe like I did it.  I want him to stop!  I don't owe him anything that he can be upset like this.

About my grandma, she demanded I called her and she had just been upset so I was afraid and hesitant.  I'm always on here about my problems and forgot.  I need a noteboard.  My dad said not to nail things, at 1st, so I haven't.

So, yea, my dad kept acting like I was bad because I didn't like the super annoying things he was doing to punish me.  I couldn't get anything out of him.  I did ask questions about it kinda as I could, but he acted like it didn't happen.