Problem

I just went to get some water and my parents were still there.  My mom seemed "self-satisfied."  My dad didn't say hi.  I had my earplugs on and said hi.  He usually says hi.

Look, I wasn't that bad.  I just didn't realize the way it seemed.  Technically, I made it.

Now, they are attaching the death of Natalie Cole to my favorite holiday and when I might have a kid someday.  They are picking at me like my mom was right and I was wrong.  It's suggestive and inappropriate to do.

My dad was being mean saying, "It's like the death of Audrey," whistling, self-satisfied like I'm not that good.

You know, I can't trust these people, anymore.  For *beep* sake I was just going to get water and check Twitter and find this.

Is the only place I'm safe church?  Or away from people like my parents at times?  My mom even said maybe we're too close, which is weird it would happen.

My dad doesn't get it that I disagree it seems, just keeps doing things against me.  He keeps acting like I'm bad now secretly but won't admit it so I can stop him.  I am not bad.  What is this?  More fighting against me as I pass in for water?  I understand if he's a certain way with some things, but it shouldn't be all this fake telling me I'm bad.  That's where he draws it from.

I'm running out of brainpower.

So, I used to be more physical when mad.  Now, I just feel taken aback and report it here.  I did take that into account.  Curse words have come.  What's the matter with me?  I tried not telling my mom she bothered me yesterday.  I just set out to deal with people and racism.  I could not trust anyone.  I didn't want to be vicious, but people actually shook their head to my face.  I cleared my throat and tried to get them to stop and accept me and make it seem right.  They were bad.  They smiled bemusedly too.  Most people here smile bemusedly.  They act like I'm just some desperate s***.  What did I do, then?  I realize it's not good for me.  But what, is this the cause of something?  It sounds like Ellen DeGeneres did it.

Do you know why my dad and people act tackily like they're "just acting like me?"  He thinks he's taking care of his oldest sister by being mean to me.

Okay, not sure what all else to say.  Sorry this post is not so clean, neither.  I tried.

Problems

Someone is k***ed because of problems to do with me?  It sounds superstitious and false, not a reason but a punishment.

I am afraid they want a relationship I have to end and not mean anything by bribing me with things like this and having me not talk about them or some such as the bargain.  This is silly.  My dad also keeps telling me things like that, like, "Don't do this or else this," and another catch.  It's like someone I like started it and he's partly just the messenger.

I feel that my life has high points that are given up for others, like it has to be for them more or something.

It's like they keep telling me I can't have a relationship I have.

This is all for no good reason.  You'll find it doesn't matter if an even bigger problem arises.  This is not okay.  I dunno, I think my dad is doing it, too.

I know the writing isn't exactly poetic, but I haven't tried to say anything bad.

No one has the right and grace to be mean to me like that.

Life only lasts so long, too.  If you're looking for the end, there it is.

I think this was a surprise.

Sorry again, I know this isn't good writing like the last post.  I just wanted to say that things are being done to stress me out like I can't do things cuza things I've done that shouldn't matter to people in my life now.  I edited it a little bit of it.  I might nap now.  I was on a walk before.  I read over it a few times, and I just need to stop.  It's like I'm getting dizzy, but not physically.

Problem

My mom got upset when I accidentally made a noise that sounded like the word "s***" because there was so much pressure.  I am worried cuz she's sick.  I don't wanna bother her, but she keeps acting threatening.  After being upset, she said we're meeting a family for bowling in awhile.  I think they are setting me up.  Maybe, I went too far asking her, but I hate resorting to this blog to think it solves my problems all the time.

So, yes, I'm sorry if she was bothered, but I finally left.  We're going out tomorrow and I don't want it to be a bad experience for her and for it to be genuine.

She was so mad it seemed cuz I asked about like how her eating making noises with her spoon bothered me, etc.  She won't stop.  I know she's doing it on purpose and acts like that's normal but tells me to get out of the house again.

Not Taking Freaked Out Messages

People keep flipping me off and blaming me for feeling upset about messages with double meanings.  My dad is doing it "with pleasure."

In the end, it's gotta make sense and I'm gonna be right.

Problem

This is all your "punishments."  You're just upset I hadn't called my grandma.  I had a good day until this.

Problem

They keep acting like someone I like is being mean to me.  They are relaying messages.

Issue

They think that they will come up with bad things by accident, but I have also seen myself punished for no reason, nonetheless.

Problem

I don't know why they have these issues with my life.  It seems selfish and not worth it.

Problem

They're acting all close like they're punishing me.

Problems

My parents are acting like it's some big project following me around supposedly trying to arouse me behind it all.

They can't act like that, having a grudge for no reason.

Whatever Happens Happens

Things like this are bad news to me.  I like a clean record, but I don't have one with my dad.  If something bad happens, I don't want it to be my fault nor my doing in.

Problem

What?  I'm just talking about the problem, too.

Bothering

They just keep messing with me and saying things against me all day!

What is this?

The Ellen DeGeneres Show?  Where we analyze all sides of a tiny object of things that don't matter?  (Disclaimer: I don't mean it's like The Ellen DeGeneres Show in that it doesn't matter.)

Problem

I don't want my life ruined just because someone is superstitious about people who talk about their problems.  I tried to be smart and not mean, etc.

Problem

They keep acting like I don't deserve anything like I used to early on in the experiment and before.  I see this is an ambush.

Problem

Why do some people think I can only talk to them and no one else when that's not the situation?  I don't see any loving parental figure and I'm 29.  This is illegal and babyish.

Look, what is your problem?!

You all are messed up and think you can talk to me like this.

Problem

They keep sending me weird, irritating messages.

You know what I don't like that's a big deal..

..all this negative energy.