Apology

I was maybe a little surprised after a nap and some chores to go outside and find all the cars rushing towards me with the same message.  I should have just ignored them.

I was upset and later acted like they did for a taste of their own medicine.

Why are the experimenters being bad to me now?  Should I just ignore that, too?  I can think what I want and realized I was a bit confused with the cars ripping by.  I said sorry things weren't perfect.  They want to move this into my life now.  They are taking advantage of our friendship.

Believe me, these cars were cutting thru.  They just don't get that.

Problems

My grandma and oldest aunt have been creeping around me so I can't think of happy thoughts by interrupting me.

Worried

Whenever I'm almost home, I get some negative message from cars.

I was so tired, and someone just clucked up that something was made for someone, I was so tired, and the cars roared past and made me or helped me think negatively when I couldn't think at 1st.  I realized it at 1st.  I tried to think thru to the point myself for some reason and tried to round it off positively.

Devastated

I was in bed and almost asleep or sorta asleep.  They said when I think of something from someone that I think of someone else, or when I "do 'the real thing.''  It is prominent in my life, and it kept coming to mind.  I was devastated and couldn't get myself to feel better, maybe in bed over an hour, f***ed.  It hasn't exactly gone away, but I've recently avoiding thinking of it.