Trying to Learn From Mistakes

People try to bug me.  If I can't seem to ignore it altogether, people get upset.  It cold take me a long time to figure out what I should do in such a weird and mean situation to me.

Problem

While trying to get by and being careful, if something seems off to others under too much pressure, it turns into a big thing.

"Rules?"

People keep saying if someone makes me think of something vicious that I really do bow down to others in submission, tho before this conversation it wasn't ever really so.

Also, I'm getting it's a joke I ask about things like bringing up Bella Thorne to me too much to act like I'm not good enough in comparison to others such as her.

Supposedly, it's a joke I ask if it's Ellen DeGeneres punishing and hurting me.  If I disagree, it's like she gets mad.  It seems weird she does this.  I used to curse about illegal, hurtful noises she supposedly put in my room.  That's why there's like an army of Ellen-ites against me.  People think it's a given you don't argue Ellen and you worship her.  Supposedly, it's that the noises weren't that bad or were okay.  I even wonder if she'd be mean to me, anyway.  She sometimes seems disgusted about me.  If I have ever gotten an idea to makeover my life, it seems people/she has a fetish that it was ever done and keep berating me for not doing it before.  In high school where she was from they were like that, too.

Stress Relief Toy

$16.99
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Sometimes, I don't feel I'd need one.  I'm not sure if it's enough nor the right thing to deal with every problem.  I like posting here, too.  When I don't know what to post, it might be good to have.

I can also get a portable stress ball.  They sell them as key chains.  Better than clenching my bare hands.

What about when I make noises in the house?  How will I ignore others's trying to get at me?

I'm against this..

..I get a lotta pressure and attacks and if I think of a curse word or something by accident cuz I'm cornered and upset.. something annoying or harmful/threatening is done.

I also can't hit my sofa when I'm upset.  I might get that stress relief toy.

Concerning Posting About Problems

They are acting like if I post a problem here that it means I don't "get" or "know" or "have a relationship" with the last person I liked.  How will I healthily talk out any of my problems that way?  How will I "get it out?"  Do I have to buy a good stress toy?  How will this ever work?