OK

I'm gonna go out for a jog/walk.

Problem

My family are always onto me like I'm someone else.  I never wanted anyone to be onto anyone.

What I Learned

You know, it's not okay to take the home lightly, manners and attitude.

What's so abnormal about me telling someone not to mess with me?  I can't leave the room every day because of it.

Threat

They are threatening a relationship because of this.

They are going on about it, now..

Threats

My mom channeled my oldest aunt and acted like I won't get something special with someone in the end now.

Problem

My mom got upset when I accidentally made a noise that sounded like the word "s***" because there was so much pressure.  I am worried cuz she's sick.  I don't wanna bother her, but she keeps acting threatening.  After being upset, she said we're meeting a family for bowling in awhile.  I think they are setting me up.  Maybe, I went too far asking her, but I hate resorting to this blog to think it solves my problems all the time.

So, yes, I'm sorry if she was bothered, but I finally left.  We're going out tomorrow and I don't want it to be a bad experience for her and for it to be genuine.

She was so mad it seemed cuz I asked about like how her eating making noises with her spoon bothered me, etc.  She won't stop.  I know she's doing it on purpose and acts like that's normal but tells me to get out of the house again.

Not Taking Freaked Out Messages

People keep flipping me off and blaming me for feeling upset about messages with double meanings.  My dad is doing it "with pleasure."

In the end, it's gotta make sense and I'm gonna be right.

Problem

They are stressing me out.  I guess they want to be involved ironing out kinks.

Problem

I thought my dad was gone, but I still heard him in the house.  He thinks he has something with me.  I'm wary of him thinking about moving or not.  If so, as an adult, I will stay here.  We are pretty stationed to stay here.

So, I dunno what's the big deal with some things.

What did I do wrong?  Just my general show or the summation and answer of my general attitude?  All I did was feel I wanted him to stop sitting there hurting me and like blabbing about what he wants to claim something someone I like is cool with that's not good.  Now, my eyes feel like they ended up furrowing and popping out and are not as expressive now.  I can improve.  I guess I have to learn to tolerate this torture.

Also, I'm worried they will use my happiness as a bargain, to take advantage of me like they have making me do things to, like, serve them, to keep a relationship in the experiment.

You know, I didn't really make a crazy deal over this and lose it, finding someone I like that I'm not as close to and could very sadly lose in some like 1% possibility it seems.  Everyone else seems to have somehow made it too big a deal, and that's not a good thing.  I feel so agitated from it.  I wanted to settle things and feel what's what.  I just couldn't do it.  Not yet.

Things aren't going good in a way, since tho I am onto being good I get told it's not about the little details we think up but an overall picture of others's opinion of right and wrong.

Now, I just kinda freak out if people look at me with a strange questioning expression and message.

Problem

They keep testing me to do or not do things, like "don't even think about it."  I cannot listen to random disorder.