Monday, December 28, 2015
What is this?
The Ellen DeGeneres Show? Where we analyze all sides of a tiny object of things that don't matter? (Disclaimer: I don't mean it's like The Ellen DeGeneres Show in that it doesn't matter.)
Threat
They think it's their duty to do in in some way someone who will be attacked anyway for being good with something.
It's because my life has not been perfect. Some people upset me and still wonder why I feel bad.
The world does not have to do this. I never said they could meddle with my life even positively. It's when it would result in this. It would have been fine if not for this negative energy etc.
It's because my life has not been perfect. Some people upset me and still wonder why I feel bad.
The world does not have to do this. I never said they could meddle with my life even positively. It's when it would result in this. It would have been fine if not for this negative energy etc.
Not Sure What Happened to Me
I guess I'm some insane from all the pressure.
I hate how people make a big deal of when I'm upset when I'm beat down. No one cares if I'm beat down, but some do. I guess this is dangerous, but you shouldn't channel negative energy to me. I didn't really attack anyone and don't do things like that. Sometimes, I feel affected by others. I dunno. I said I was under pressure and like would mess up, but they all leave it to me and get at me if I do something silly and say it's potential danger. I'm aware of that.
I worry I'll get sick from this, like serious cancer. It looks like the kind of thing. I see I care about my life but I'm getting tortured. They keep jumping at me every day like hot tamales. I don't approve of it. It's channeling wasteful, negative energy. I need real exercise. I wonder if I should try those dance classes. I went out and walked or jogged 3 times today each for at least an hour.
I hate how people make a big deal of when I'm upset when I'm beat down. No one cares if I'm beat down, but some do. I guess this is dangerous, but you shouldn't channel negative energy to me. I didn't really attack anyone and don't do things like that. Sometimes, I feel affected by others. I dunno. I said I was under pressure and like would mess up, but they all leave it to me and get at me if I do something silly and say it's potential danger. I'm aware of that.
I worry I'll get sick from this, like serious cancer. It looks like the kind of thing. I see I care about my life but I'm getting tortured. They keep jumping at me every day like hot tamales. I don't approve of it. It's channeling wasteful, negative energy. I need real exercise. I wonder if I should try those dance classes. I went out and walked or jogged 3 times today each for at least an hour.
Problem
My dad acted like he bubbled me off from feeling touched by someone I like and sealed it. He said it's for "Bell" or Bella Thorne, tho.
Bullying/Witchery
My dad said something about things happening concerning if my teeth are a certain way, and it happened.
He said in a week it's about someone else rubbed in a way that's not nice. I am not trying to sound inappropriate or anything! That's what he relayed.
He said in a week it's about someone else rubbed in a way that's not nice. I am not trying to sound inappropriate or anything! That's what he relayed.
Problem
I don't want my life ruined just because someone is superstitious about people who talk about their problems. I tried to be smart and not mean, etc.
Problem
They keep acting like I don't deserve anything like I used to early on in the experiment and before. I see this is an ambush.
Problem
Why do some people think I can only talk to them and no one else when that's not the situation? I don't see any loving parental figure and I'm 29. This is illegal and babyish.
Problem
My dad just got back from visiting my grandma.
He said someone can't touch me or else and that someone else is good to feel touched.
1st, he said something else and I refuse to listen, that if I think of something somewhere something else.
He said someone can't touch me or else and that someone else is good to feel touched.
1st, he said something else and I refuse to listen, that if I think of something somewhere something else.
And Another Thing
I want to scout out something. What about people, other than Bella Thorne too, getting attention and the process not bombing and it going smoothly? Things were always okay before and not so explosive.
1 problem is that I can't seem to stop feeling that it also destroys something when people maybe are a bit "sloppy" or something, when someone clicks and someone else has their head in the clouds or something. Yes, I want to help them, but it may be hard because it's not like we can build people. We just copy them.
See, you think I shouldn't have said this, but it was important and you're glad I did underneath it all.
1 problem is that I can't seem to stop feeling that it also destroys something when people maybe are a bit "sloppy" or something, when someone clicks and someone else has their head in the clouds or something. Yes, I want to help them, but it may be hard because it's not like we can build people. We just copy them.
See, you think I shouldn't have said this, but it was important and you're glad I did underneath it all.
Problem
They are ruining my existence. I don't wanna say everything they say now cuz they won't stop. They keep saying negative things about a relationship. Why are you all so obsessed like there's something there to hack at? They think if I look upset in real life that they can nag at me and do something bad to me. Well, they have the negative attitude. I am the one being attacked, and they think that's okay. No point trying to convince them.
Well, basically..
..they're onto me.
Pretty much, if I am pretty non-upset for a long time, it's better, but it's bound to happen sooner or later, some slip like being a nuisance to my parents for something. So, pretty much they are just waiting for me to mess up under pressure to take away every relationship I have by telling these people via experimenting on me what not to do and them bothering me all the time at home.
This is the kind of thing I said didn't make sense outside of the experiment if that can be.. that when people match with my personality they have a problem with me getting attention from others cuz they are jealous.
They also have it set I can't have it good. I am always insulted by them and worried. They chose when the page saves and how the computer loads and the ads to send me insulting or hurtful messages.
This is pathetic. I am a well-behaved person who people like outside of the experiment. This experiment has brought on a lotta stress and weird situations. I have a bad feeling about this.
Ever since the experiment became known to me, I felt like people were cursing me out in what they relayed. It wasn't the best times.
Sorry, if I'm bad in some way, but if I am bad I tend to regret it and not do it again, maybe. I just don't think I am out to get anyone. I get put in too many weird situations under pressure. I know that is just the hatred.
Pretty much, if I am pretty non-upset for a long time, it's better, but it's bound to happen sooner or later, some slip like being a nuisance to my parents for something. So, pretty much they are just waiting for me to mess up under pressure to take away every relationship I have by telling these people via experimenting on me what not to do and them bothering me all the time at home.
This is the kind of thing I said didn't make sense outside of the experiment if that can be.. that when people match with my personality they have a problem with me getting attention from others cuz they are jealous.
They also have it set I can't have it good. I am always insulted by them and worried. They chose when the page saves and how the computer loads and the ads to send me insulting or hurtful messages.
This is pathetic. I am a well-behaved person who people like outside of the experiment. This experiment has brought on a lotta stress and weird situations. I have a bad feeling about this.
Ever since the experiment became known to me, I felt like people were cursing me out in what they relayed. It wasn't the best times.
Sorry, if I'm bad in some way, but if I am bad I tend to regret it and not do it again, maybe. I just don't think I am out to get anyone. I get put in too many weird situations under pressure. I know that is just the hatred.
Problem
My mom was being very mean making noises in the kitchen that were very loud and bothersome. In the end, I talked to her about it and she just reacted like I was attacking her. Like I said, I guess I should have just posted about it here. She thinks I was bothering her to ask. She put my life down the dumps, it seems she claims. I keep getting negative messages from people supposedly from someone I like, as usual. Do you know how pathetic this is? I was just asking my mom cuz I knew it was wrong and later found it could make me mad. She acted like I was the one hurting her. Maybe, I asked several times and that was too much. Supposedly, a certain aspect of a relationship is compensated. I know no one else gets jeopardized like this. They are racist and forewarned about me. She just had to go and ruin it and thinks I deserve nothing to be safe. That's thinking your bait is a fish. I didn't ask her to be proud. Now, something in my life is ruined. My parents are messed up. I think my dad started it. They just rebound at me if ever I find reason to be upset with their anger/peevishness.
The people experimenting on me are messing with me that I deserve this. My relationship is over. They are saying I have to be the one to talk to someone else. Come on, what is this? You don't seem to know what someone else said to me, lying. I can't trust this. Come on, I need my relationship back. What's going on? You can just do whatever you want to anyone you want?
Gonna go for a walk. So, gotta go. Will post this and see what happens.
The people experimenting on me are messing with me that I deserve this. My relationship is over. They are saying I have to be the one to talk to someone else. Come on, what is this? You don't seem to know what someone else said to me, lying. I can't trust this. Come on, I need my relationship back. What's going on? You can just do whatever you want to anyone you want?
Gonna go for a walk. So, gotta go. Will post this and see what happens.
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