Problems

Not sure if there's a problem here.

So, it all started out, maybe I had issues and some problems.  I was pretty good, tho.  My dad just is out to get me.

I was upset that so many times I get the wrong order when my parents order out.  I just let out some emotion that I was upset cuz it broke me.  My parents were all weird like, "Nah-ah."  They want to know why I'm really mad.  Well, it's not that fascinating. Anyway, then after being pretty good ignoring their being mean, my dad acted like, "Tomorrow it won't be about such and such anymore.. -it'll be about Bella."  Cursing didn't come to my mind, no offense in mentioning etc.  I was just upset.  I know now that they just ignore me if I'm upset.  No one is there for me!  They keep being abusive and ruining my life outside of them.  Everyone just goes with it.

So, I went for a walk.  At 1st I was upset at their repetitive panderings about someone in a way that wasn't nice.  That over, I was upset at a racist and wanted to get at him as he passed in his car.  I should not be reading into things like that.  Right after those 2 things quickly, I got over it and ignored people in the end.  Something must have hit home, it frustrated me.. cars came by and listened to what my dad relayed.  They acted like it was all over for our celebrating but in a way that affected what I did.  I didn't want to be mean but made a face, a simple upset face maybe cuz my face is ruined.  I don't think I was trying to "make a face."  They ignored me mostly.  I smoothly figured out what was wrong after.  I didn't curse or anything.

It's just you can't threaten me like that.  "It's not about such and such."  A day.  I can't live on the spur of the moment.  Those people took it too seriously.  It's up to what's best and wanted by the person.

Problem

Why is everyone so freely calling me not white all of a sudden?

"Stop it!"

I found telling myself for others to stop it prevents me from thinking of bad words.

How much do you wanna handle?

It's hard to believe the tantrums some people have who already have "too much."

I don't know what to do, I've made an enemy

Ellen DeGeneres decided to be my enemy, but maybe it would partly be like that regardless of her reasons.  I realize in some ways she's not, but she thinks I'm bad and she's doing what she's supposed to when she can catch something that's not perfect.  That's not normal is the problem.  I'm just saying.  I did find she might be like that anyway.  It's just very silly to be an "enemy" of someone who does not want to be your enemy.

Problem

They are bothering me and acting like Bella Thorne is talking to someone I like all the time but no one else.

Apology

Sorry if you didn't like how I used the word "wasteful," but it does not mean anything bad.

Problem

Why is Ellen DeGeneres always getting at me for the past and things that had legitimate reasons from my part yet not the other?  Why is anyone else, too?

Problem

They are just being wasteful of my time.

*Apology

Problem

They are acting like I'm nothing to someone but Ellen DeGeneres is because she's older.

However

Bella Thorne posts like she's being listened to like foiling me as in trouble.  Something about it made me wonder.

Problem

They are suggesting that what I post online doesn't matter to anyone I like cuz I took a survey online and admitted something I had said as a yes.  Just saying.  They pretty much have everyone locked up with the experimenting/spying on me.  It just seems ridiculous to have my blog ignored but me be in contact via whatever they say about me in private.  I feel like they're just putting on a show for each other for little things that happen that I don't know about at the time to do or not.  I know Ellen DeGeneres used to pay attention online but stopped after she did something and I posted about it and used an inappropriate "adult" word.  I think they are having everyone ignore me cuza her.