Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Problems

Not sure if there's a problem here.

So, it all started out, maybe I had issues and some problems.  I was pretty good, tho.  My dad just is out to get me.

I was upset that so many times I get the wrong order when my parents order out.  I just let out some emotion that I was upset cuz it broke me.  My parents were all weird like, "Nah-ah."  They want to know why I'm really mad.  Well, it's not that fascinating. Anyway, then after being pretty good ignoring their being mean, my dad acted like, "Tomorrow it won't be about such and such anymore.. -it'll be about Bella."  Cursing didn't come to my mind, no offense in mentioning etc.  I was just upset.  I know now that they just ignore me if I'm upset.  No one is there for me!  They keep being abusive and ruining my life outside of them.  Everyone just goes with it.

So, I went for a walk.  At 1st I was upset at their repetitive panderings about someone in a way that wasn't nice.  That over, I was upset at a racist and wanted to get at him as he passed in his car.  I should not be reading into things like that.  Right after those 2 things quickly, I got over it and ignored people in the end.  Something must have hit home, it frustrated me.. cars came by and listened to what my dad relayed.  They acted like it was all over for our celebrating but in a way that affected what I did.  I didn't want to be mean but made a face, a simple upset face maybe cuz my face is ruined.  I don't think I was trying to "make a face."  They ignored me mostly.  I smoothly figured out what was wrong after.  I didn't curse or anything.

It's just you can't threaten me like that.  "It's not about such and such."  A day.  I can't live on the spur of the moment.  Those people took it too seriously.  It's up to what's best and wanted by the person.