I thought my dad was gone, but I still heard him in the house. He thinks he has something with me. I'm wary of him thinking about moving or not. If so, as an adult, I will stay here. We are pretty stationed to stay here.
So, I dunno what's the big deal with some things.
What did I do wrong? Just my general show or the summation and answer of my general attitude? All I did was feel I wanted him to stop sitting there hurting me and like blabbing about what he wants to claim something someone I like is cool with that's not good. Now, my eyes feel like they ended up furrowing and popping out and are not as expressive now. I can improve. I guess I have to learn to tolerate this torture.
Also, I'm worried they will use my happiness as a bargain, to take advantage of me like they have making me do things to, like, serve them, to keep a relationship in the experiment.
You know, I didn't really make a crazy deal over this and lose it, finding someone I like that I'm not as close to and could very sadly lose in some like 1% possibility it seems. Everyone else seems to have somehow made it too big a deal, and that's not a good thing. I feel so agitated from it. I wanted to settle things and feel what's what. I just couldn't do it. Not yet.
Things aren't going good in a way, since tho I am onto being good I get told it's not about the little details we think up but an overall picture of others's opinion of right and wrong.
Now, I just kinda freak out if people look at me with a strange questioning expression and message.