I just went to get some water and my parents were still there. My mom seemed "self-satisfied." My dad didn't say hi. I had my earplugs on and said hi. He usually says hi.
Look, I wasn't that bad. I just didn't realize the way it seemed. Technically, I made it.
Now, they are attaching the death of Natalie Cole to my favorite holiday and when I might have a kid someday. They are picking at me like my mom was right and I was wrong. It's suggestive and inappropriate to do.
My dad was being mean saying, "It's like the death of Audrey," whistling, self-satisfied like I'm not that good.
You know, I can't trust these people, anymore. For *beep* sake I was just going to get water and check Twitter and find this.
Is the only place I'm safe church? Or away from people like my parents at times? My mom even said maybe we're too close, which is weird it would happen.
My dad doesn't get it that I disagree it seems, just keeps doing things against me. He keeps acting like I'm bad now secretly but won't admit it so I can stop him. I am not bad. What is this? More fighting against me as I pass in for water? I understand if he's a certain way with some things, but it shouldn't be all this fake telling me I'm bad. That's where he draws it from.
I'm running out of brainpower.
So, I used to be more physical when mad. Now, I just feel taken aback and report it here. I did take that into account. Curse words have come. What's the matter with me? I tried not telling my mom she bothered me yesterday. I just set out to deal with people and racism. I could not trust anyone. I didn't want to be vicious, but people actually shook their head to my face. I cleared my throat and tried to get them to stop and accept me and make it seem right. They were bad. They smiled bemusedly too. Most people here smile bemusedly. They act like I'm just some desperate s***. What did I do, then? I realize it's not good for me. But what, is this the cause of something? It sounds like Ellen DeGeneres did it.
Do you know why my dad and people act tackily like they're "just acting like me?" He thinks he's taking care of his oldest sister by being mean to me.
Okay, not sure what all else to say. Sorry this post is not so clean, neither. I tried.